You were better at the game

We played games,

We went back and forth,

One step forward, two steps back.

I thought we were equal

But you were better at the game,

I should have seen it sooner,

You fought with a sword,

When I only had a stick.

I was always on the defense.

Shield in hand

To combat your blow.

And I wasn’t cut out for the game.

You demolished my worth,

And now I’m still fighting

To get it back.

You see I left it with you

Here in the past.

I thought it was a price

I had to pay.

But I now see

You were a liar,

You are not better than me,

Or holier,

Or more the victim.

We hurt each other

In this game of the heart.

We did not honor the dance,

Instead we treated it as a battle.

Always trying to be the victor

With a winner and loser,

And in the end I lost.

And when you won

I thought I had to pay a price,

And hand over my worth.

But I see now that was not true.

I don’t owe you anything.

I now take back my worth.

It was never yours to keep.

I refuse to pay your toll.

And no longer hold onto

Your toxic narrative

That I was the villain

In this game of the heart.

So thanks for ending the game.

It really wasn’t fun at all.

You and I are done.

I lay down my shield.

I got what I came for.

More of me, none of you.

Goodbye my ex lover

You and I are no more.

Written by Amanda Durocher

4.30.25