I wade through the waters
Searching through the wreckage.
Where is my self-worth?
Have you seen it?

What were you wearing?
Were you drinking?
Why were you there?
What were you thinking?

Mirror, mirror 
On the wall,
Who’s the most dangerous
Of them all?

Hey there, do you remember me?
Or do I not even ring a bell?
I think about you all the time
Your face haunts my personal hell.

The devil knocked on my door,
He was wearing a disguise.
He looked like a handsome stranger,
One of those nice guys.

I awoke to see I had always been dreaming.
Startled awake I saw I was in a nightmare.
Was this nightmare my creation?
Or did someone put me to sleep?

For so long I have remained silent,
Taking your abuse and becoming violent,
Against myself and those closest to me,
In order to keep your secrets under lock and key.

You are my most shameful secret,
The one buried deep within
The cemetery of my heart
Where all my heartaches live.

Don’t tell anyone
But I have a mighty fear.
It paralyzes me
And keeps me stuck here.

To be present and grounded.
To know I’m always safe.
To hold myself tightly,
In my own embrace.

Why is it so easy,
To look away from pain?
Why do we do it?
What do we gain?