Discovering Who I Am, One Decision at a Time
Finding out who I am has been a beautiful process.
In the past, when faced with that question, I would list the traits I carried, the masks I wore, the roles I played - but that wasn’t the same as knowing myself.
I could name traits like kind, funny, thoughtful. But to know yourself beyond some personality traits is a treasure that somehow many people have seemed to have lost.
With time spent on the healing journey, I realize I do know who I am, just in a deeper sense. And each day, I get to know myself a little better through new experiences, the rise and fall of emotions, and finally, by listening to my body’s wisdom and needs. It took me awhile to understand just how much effort it required to even hear the many ways my body and emotions were communicating with me.
I’ve also learned to settle into myself. To trust that I will keep evolving, meeting new versions of me across the seasons of my life. But right now, the gift is presence: to witness myself, to be myself.
This began with small things.
As someone taught to ignore my own gut, I started with a simple question in my day-to-day life:
“Does this feel like a full-body yes… or a no?”
I asked it with the "simple" things first: when choosing what to eat, what to wear, whether to spend time with someone.
And then something shifted.
The little choices became a doorway back to me. The more I listened, the louder my body spoke. The more I honored the things that seemed like small decisions, the more I met myself.
It turns out self-discovery isn’t always a grand awakening. Sometimes, it’s the quietest of questions. Sometimes, it’s learning to trust the answer. Sometimes, years into the healing journey, you reflect and realize you finally know exactly who you are.
